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[Dec. 10th, 2005|11:22 pm] |
Im sick
im sad
and im single |
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[Dec. 7th, 2005|09:43 pm] |
So, tomorrow will be 3 months since mom passed away. I feel like I should be more upset, but I'm not. I don't know. I've hit that numb phase I guess.
I can already feel that the holidays are gonna be rough as hell for me. Thanksgiving was hard, but I expected that. We had our first snow this week and it was miserable for me. I remember Mom used to nag me when it snowed. She used to make me shovel and when I was done, she'd make me hot chocolate. When she wasn't too sick, she'd come out and help me. It's so wierd that I don't have to stress over about what to get her for Christmas. I have my whole family coming for Christmas. That's good and bad. I mean, it's good that I'll be with them, but it's bad because they all have eachother. My 3 uncles have eachother, my aunt has her husband and 3 kids, my grandparents have eachother, but I'm just kind of there.
I'm really not a big fan of this, but I'm happy shes not suffering anymore...
I miss you Mom. Hope you're doing ok... |
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[Dec. 7th, 2005|09:24 am] |
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id post my boyfriend application here, but the only people who read this are straight chicks, gay guys and the occasional trevor. ^______________________________^ |
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[Dec. 6th, 2005|11:16 pm] |
idk what the fuck is going on and im tired of crying. i just want a friend. i want someone to care. i want someone to ask ME to hang out, i want someone to call ME and ask how im doing. i want someone to take care of ME for once. no one knows what its like to be in my shoes. im constantly getting fucked over and i have no one to talk to. they wanna lock me up and no one wants to help me get better. im so fucking scared. and the worst part is, everyone knows the bad shape im in yet no one cares.
Their response= "I care.... I dont know what to do though"
My Response= "i just want someone to be there for me. its not that hard, really. "
i used to have so many friends. now it feels like i have no one at all. god, i hate this. |
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[Dec. 3rd, 2005|06:23 pm] |
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Soooooo, last night was very fun.
which is good, its really what i needed.
things are going ok,but idk, i dont wanna jynx it.
its amazing what i missed in a week, thats for sure.
blah. im bored. any ideas for something to do?
yes? no? pumpkin pie? explode? |
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[Dec. 1st, 2005|01:07 pm] |
hi... im still here. i did something stupid this week and it might have fucked up the rest of my life. i wont get into the details here, its embarressing enough as it is. and if i tell u whats going on, then that shows i trust you enough to tell u.
its not fun, ill tell u that much, but i was at that point.
what i really need now is a friend. i passed the point of "cry for help". ive made my cry and it didnt get me very far. so if u really care, please let me know. i dont have many options. |
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[Nov. 27th, 2005|11:50 pm] |
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im giving up. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2005|01:48 am] |
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* insert breakdown here * |
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[Nov. 24th, 2005|07:01 pm] |
my family didnt even wait for me when they ate.
how fabulous.
ive never felt so alone in my life.
never. |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2005|11:19 pm] |
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i feel the beginnings of a breakdown and its not good... |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2005|09:16 am] |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2005|12:05 am] |
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i miss my mother. i miss her so fucking much. |
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[Nov. 21st, 2005|10:40 pm] |
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i give today an 11 out of 10. i had class at 1, it was kinda lonely cuz jess wasnt there, but it was fun anyways. and he let us out early! yay! soooo i went to the school, grabbed christina, hit up tbell, stopher met up w/ us, good times in strathmore like usual.
sooooooooo then i went home. and did some x-mas stuff. THENNNNNN i went to ze mall w/ melissa, stopher, christina and ryan. we just ran around doing random stuff, shopped for dresses, photoboothed, ate, usual trip w/ brie to the mall. ryan went home early, but we stayed. we hung out for a while after then went home, screaming out songs the whole way. tres fun.
thennnn we went to bens house. i havent seen him since i got my tattoo and it was REALLY good to see him again.
so its like i said, overall today was great.
and for once i have a smile on my face, which is a huge change.
and this goes to a certain someone: maybe if u didnt ignore everyone like u say u do then u wouldnt feel the way you do. |
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[Nov. 20th, 2005|10:02 pm] |
im still so miserable. the last time my phone went off was thursday. it was a text from nikki. thats it. i just leave it on the charger now, no one uses it. im always plan b. im always the phone call when no one else is around, and to be honest, ive given up calling everyone else, they dont answer or call me back.
its like i told tyler, i just feel very hated. i know ive fucked up w/ a few people, but whatever, im not letting it phase me. its the people i havent done anything to thats bothering me...
idk.
i just need a hug... i feel so lonely |
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[Nov. 18th, 2005|12:14 pm] |
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dear trevor, we should hang out soon. sincerely, brie. |
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[Nov. 18th, 2005|03:02 am] |
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what i really need right now is a friend. just a good friend. thats all.... |
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