So, tomorrow will be 3 months since mom passed away. I feel like I should be more upset, but I'm not. I don't know. I've hit that numb phase I guess.

I can already feel that the holidays are gonna be rough as hell for me. Thanksgiving was hard, but I expected that. We had our first snow this week and it was miserable for me. I remember Mom used to nag me when it snowed. She used to make me shovel and when I was done, she'd make me hot chocolate. When she wasn't too sick, she'd come out and help me. It's so wierd that I don't have to stress over about what to get her for Christmas. I have my whole family coming for Christmas. That's good and bad. I mean, it's good that I'll be with them, but it's bad because they all have eachother. My 3 uncles have eachother, my aunt has her husband and 3 kids, my grandparents have eachother, but I'm just kind of there.

I'm really not a big fan of this, but I'm happy shes not suffering anymore...

I miss you Mom. Hope you're doing ok...